the sun and the moon

I would like to concider my self a stable person. Or so I would like to think. I have noticed the shift in friends, and it made me think. Why does this happen? Am I that bad of a friend? But as I was talking to my sis she said something that got to me. That most of the people in church that I have considerd a friend move in seasons. I was amazed cause it was true. People move on once there needs are met. Way? What happen to friends are for ever? I thougt to my self how can someone live life always migrating friends every so offten? I know that I'm not able to do that. I like to have friends that are always there when I need them and I am there for them. Then my sis said something else. That as other people ove toward us, then they move ono thing will be certain, and that is that we will always be there like the sun and the moon. We are the band aid for people who have gotten hurt, and help them be able to get back on there feet. I'm glad that I'm able to be there when people are in need and maybe some might stay and be my stable friend.

the balloon man

Creativity, most people have it. To be able to come up with ideas and new ways of thinking. People are creative in a way that they see something and they can improve on it. While a lot of people have creativity, most people are missing an important part of the word, Create. While most people think on what they want but can they make it in to reality?

I thank God for this gift of mine. That I am able to receve an idea and be able to carry it out. I see my self like that balloon man at a circus. God is my helium the insperation. The balloon is the creation, and God is using me to fill it up to what it needs to be. Same as in a circus he hands the balloon away. Meanning although I create it and get it running and going its not really mine to keep. I must hand it off to the rightful owner. God is the insparation. I'm the creator, and I hand it off to the owner.

I dont know how to love him

I've lived for 22 years on the face of this small planet. Been baptized filled with the Holy Gohst for 6 years. Lately in my life I as the question. Do I really have a relationship with my one true love? Do I really know how to love him?

The reason I ask such a question is because in my life I've gone through so many questions. Which have all bunched up in my head all wanting to be answered. Which have been driving me almost in to a depression. Like if the economy wasn't enough. I've tried to share my problems but felt ashamed because of all the things I've let passed through. Till tonight when speaking with a friend. He reminded me if I had a relationship with God. While he was speaking I was looking at my life. Seeing all the areas that I was lacking in. In my head it finaly clicked. That I've never really had a relationship with God. This whole time I thought I did but in reality I didn't.

I was walking aimlessly through. Thinking that I knew him but now I need to make a change. To find out what really makes God smile. To know him as he gets to know me. To fall in love with Jesus my love my life my all