changing from the one u knew

I've been faced with change. I've been forced to grow up. I've been forced to be fake with some people just because I want to fit in. In a mold that has nothing to do with me, or with what God has for me. His plan and purpose for me. To dress, talk, and act in a certain maner has left me dameged. That I started to lose focus, and my identity of who I was.

I'm taking a stand for God and my self. I'm gonna be me not hiding thing that I normaly would. Letting my life flow with all that God has for me. I'm stil me shy, and timid at certain thing, but I'm not gonna take as much as I normaly would.

someone is watching not just God

Tonight was a fun night. It was the hagiazo youths scavenger hunt. We played, laughed,and hung out. I wouldb just like to remind the youth that there are people that are watching every move you make. Tonight I was put in a team with adam, ceacer, sammy, and israel. I never really seen israel hang out with the youth ever. I think this was his first time. Which means we are leaving an impresion on him. He's watching us. Which made me wonder what must he think of us? I was really disapointed, and let down on how some people acted. Calling each other cheaters, yelling, screaming, trying to put the other teams down. All for what a starbucks card? Imagin is israel was actualy a soul that some brought today and saw all that was going on, would he want to return? I think its time to watch our actions and so do I. I also have to catch my self sometimes. I just hope God can help me better my self for His kingdom. Cause we are on the radar of people at all times.

my mind up to date

All I've been tinking on latelt is on this magazine T.O.R. I've dedicated a lot of time on it. Been close to publishing it. I started out with good hopes and dreams, and friends that where gonna help me. It all has gone down. I couldn't do this alone. So I'm still debating if I should continue. Oh Lord give me strength so that I may do Your will, and not lean in to my dbout. Honestly I do want to finish this magazine cause I understand the power that I has, and what it can do. I'm really looking for people who like to writen. like testimonials, devotions, life changing articles, experiances, spritual growth. People who would like to exalt God by encouraging others. I'm asking whoever is reading this blog and would like to help me to continue this vision or would like to leave me notes of encouragement leave a comment and a why I can reach u thanks a lot -Jonathan